Changing Direction

It's been such a busy summer. Unfortunately not in the job department. My summer has been pretty good. Spent a week at Kill Devil Hills, NC. I think we literally spent 90% of our time on the beach. Listening to the ocean can be so relaxing. I completely forgot about all my worries. I think we all benefited from the quality family time. For a while I thought maybe relocating to Wilmington was gonna be my next move, but the job I was hoping for fell through. It would have been a great adventure that we all were ready to take on ,but sometimes things happen for a reason. I am learning to accept that. It's not always easy , especially when you want something so bad. I have always been an optimistic person. Here lately that hasn't been the case. The job hunt was really starting to get to me. After the relocating to start anew didn't pan out, I really started to feel like I was sinking into a deep pit. I was afraid I would never be able to dig myself out. Interview after interview and no job offer just knocks you back down over and over. I had a kind of ah hah moment. I was tired of feeling beaten and dragged down. I realized and accepted that the bills would still keep coming whether I'm happy or not. I don't like feeling depressed and lost, so I have chosen not to allow this struggle to bring me down. I am changing direction. I am going to get my strength and fire back. There are opportunities I need to pursue and even create new ones for myself. Finding that inner strength isn't something that can happen over night, but choosing to empower myself is.  So from now on I'm going to continue my job search but not let the negative infect me. I am open to new opportunities and I am going to search out those opportunities.

I have to apologize for my absence. I know I'm slacking on keeping this thing updated. Well not much has changed since my last post. Nothing new on the job front any ways. I'm still hunting and submitting resumes. I have even started searching out of town, but no luck. I'm worried my unemployment will run out before I find a new job. I'm currently trying pet sitting. I don't k ow how successful I will be but I do love animals. I have eight dogs of my own plus my husbands chickens, our bearded dragon, my sons guinea pig and our two birds make up our family. So I think I have adequate experience! My mother in law works at a vet and she's agreed to pass my name on to anyone who needs services. So until next time I will catch ya on the flip side.

It's offically been a week since I started my blog. This past week has been a roller coaster of decisions. I keep sending out resumes and making connections. I also was faced with deciding whether to continue pursuing my dream of owning a bakery. I have ran into several road blocks and have found that the detours around those road blocks aren't any easier either. It's not the challenge but the financial cost that's keeping me from moving forward. My creative juices have been flowing and I'm. Keeping my options open. I have been thinking about massage therapy. I'm already going to school and I still got 2 more years to finish. I can be a certified massage therapist in as little as 9 months. That means I can graduate and be making money by Christmas ! I have never though about it before but it isn't a cubicle job and I still get to work with people which I am really good at. It also means I could find a decent job too. I'm gonna do more research first but I'm seriously considering moving forward!

It's offically been a week since I started my blog. This past week has been a roller coaster of decisions. I keep sending out resumes and making connections. I also was faced with deciding whether to continue pursuing my dream of owning a bakery. I have ran into several road blocks and have found that the detours around those road blocks aren't any easier either. It's not the challenge but the financial cost that's keeping me from moving forward. My creative juices have been flowing and I'm. Keeping my options open. I have been thinking about massage therapy. I'm already going to school and I still got 2 more years to finish. I can be a certified massage therapist in as little as 9 months. That means I can graduate and be making money by Christmas ! I have never though about it before but it isn't a cubicle job and I still get to work with people which I am really good at. It also means I could find a decent job too. I'm gonna do more research first but I'm seriously considering moving forward!

Since I have been out of worked I have tried to look at my situation as a blessing in disguise. I decided I would try and start my own business. I was going to turn my love and passion for baking into a career. I knew it wasn't going to be easy but I was prepared to work hard. I made a business plan and even did research on the best ways to get my name out there. I practiced baking a few of the goodies I wanted to sell. I wanted my finished product to be perfect. That all came to halt when during my research I learned that NC health laws prohibit any home based food business from having any kind of animals living in the home or area where the baking or cooking will take place. Anyone who knows me knows that's a deal breaker. I was so frustrated! I want my own business . How am I gonna get around this hurdle now? I still haven't given up my dream I just have had to put it on hold until I can figure out a better way to proceed.
In the mean time I'm still sending in resumes and searching daily for a job. I have almost become obsessed. Since I can access job sites from my phone , it has made it easy to constantly check on any new listings. I worry my money will run out before something new comes along. The fear never really goes away. I'm staying positive though. That's the only way to get through this. Well I hope to catch you guys on the flip side!

The Beginning

2011 didn't start out exactly as I had expected. On January 10th I joined the million or so people who are currently unemployed. I learned that loosing your job can be just as devastating as loosing anything important in your life. I experienced all the major stages of grief. I was in shock at first, I couldn't believe this was happening to me. Then I was hurt, hurt that after all those years of doing favors , sacrificing time with my family, working so hard for them they just threw me to the side like an old pair of shoes. The reality of being unemployed set in and I was scared. Scared of not being able to pay me bills, and take care of my family. Scared of the unknown, of not knowing when I would start to receive unemployment, not knowing when I would find another job. That's when I became angry. How dare they just brush me off. I deserve respect and appreciation for what I did for that company. I was angry for allowing others to have that kind of affect on me. I soon came to accept my fate. I realized I wasn't hurt or angry about loosing my job. I really didn't like that job to begin with, and I was more worried about my family and the financial situation we were now in.
So here I am . I decided the best way I could cope with my situation was to share my journey with others. I know there where many people out of work before me and there will be many more after my journey comes to an end. The journey just gets lonely sometimes, and I found it's hard to talk about it with family and friends. So I am prepared to discuss my journey with the world. This is only the beginning!!