Changing Direction

It's been such a busy summer. Unfortunately not in the job department. My summer has been pretty good. Spent a week at Kill Devil Hills, NC. I think we literally spent 90% of our time on the beach. Listening to the ocean can be so relaxing. I completely forgot about all my worries. I think we all benefited from the quality family time. For a while I thought maybe relocating to Wilmington was gonna be my next move, but the job I was hoping for fell through. It would have been a great adventure that we all were ready to take on ,but sometimes things happen for a reason. I am learning to accept that. It's not always easy , especially when you want something so bad. I have always been an optimistic person. Here lately that hasn't been the case. The job hunt was really starting to get to me. After the relocating to start anew didn't pan out, I really started to feel like I was sinking into a deep pit. I was afraid I would never be able to dig myself out. Interview after interview and no job offer just knocks you back down over and over. I had a kind of ah hah moment. I was tired of feeling beaten and dragged down. I realized and accepted that the bills would still keep coming whether I'm happy or not. I don't like feeling depressed and lost, so I have chosen not to allow this struggle to bring me down. I am changing direction. I am going to get my strength and fire back. There are opportunities I need to pursue and even create new ones for myself. Finding that inner strength isn't something that can happen over night, but choosing to empower myself is.  So from now on I'm going to continue my job search but not let the negative infect me. I am open to new opportunities and I am going to search out those opportunities.